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In case you are curious; we had Javanese wedding (hence the kebaya I wore,) but I asked (forced my family, actually,) for the men to wear beskap Sunda-style attire. I also asked for the women in the families to go freestyle with their Javanese kebaya so they can walk comfortably.
Happy 10th year anniversary, dear. For many years to come.
As… Risky as self-diagnosed is, sometimes you can notice some symptoms on yourself, or you have been feeling in a certain way about something, and social media helps you on recognizing such signs.
I feel like I’ve been feeling emotionally exhausted. I have difficulties in waking up (and dreading the day,) small chores/tasks becoming a burden, and I unable to enjoy things that I used to enjoy.
It has been going on for 1-2 weeks, and things just finally clicked today (I thought I’m just having lack of sleep, that’s all. Or maybe lack of sleep is part of the signs?)
Then, I checked Google and found this link: How to Refuel When You’re Feeling Emotionally Drained. When I checked Google — with keywords “how to handle emotional exhaustion,” — most of the articles are from 2017-2019, so I omitted them as I feel it’s irrelevant. We are dealing with emotional exhaustion in 2020-2021, in a really specific case: The pandemic. The HBR article above dated from the 2020, so I feel it fits.
The first step in reducing emotional resource consumption is recognizing the circumstances (e.g., situations, tasks, relationships) that deplete you, then limiting your exposure to them.
I wonder if the emotional exhaustion started when I started checking my Twitter timeline. The time frame fits, though. I used to not checking my Twitter timeline, but I have been pretty active lately — and lets just say stuffs on Twitter has not been super great lately.
We can’t order the pandemic to stop (as much as we want to!) but the discussions about it has been amplified tenfolds and even more on social media chambers. Now I wonder if it caused the unneeded stress on my end.
I still need Twitter, though. Mainly for the account itself (to check Twitter Card Validator whenever folks ask why their link didn’t display images when shared on Twitter.) But yeah, maybe less rage-scrolling.
Shy little frog, singing along to this fun tune
Lo-fi version on Spotify:
(Featured image is an illustration by Twitter user @kapebeansies)
Usually those who are trying the best are the ones that trying to keep everything together.
As Jeffrey Zeldman said:
Take a moment to be gentle with yourself, and with all whom you encounter. Even the monsters are crying inside.
When I read Marie Kondo’s book ‘The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up’, I remember the part where she shared her personal story on how she tends to tidy things up/organizing her desk on the night before exams instead of studying.
When I read that part, I went, “oh Lord. This is meeeeee!” — I guess that’s one of the reasons why I really like Marie Kondo. Her experiences resonated with me.
When I get nervous/worried, I usually do journaling. I would open my bullet journal book, and even rewrote the entries. I would nitpicking every smallest thing on my journal — the handwriting looks weird, the formatting is not as neat as previous month’s, the ink looks off.
Then, I could leave the journal unattended for days, even weeks.
And now, as if bullet journal is not enough, I decided to try DayOne app — partly because of the recent acquisition by Automattic. I never (? Rarely? I once used Evernote, but for to-do list and it failed on my end) use any journaling app and this is a really new experience for me.
Although, now that I’m thinking about it again, social media accounts such as Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Kakao Story — those are actually journaling tool too! Well, if you are okay with the whole dumpster fire called “Twitter”, though.
Oh. A bit of FYI. I tried exporting/sharing my DayOne entry to my WordPress.com blog (from one app to another.) Somehow the only exported content is the picture/image — and no texts at all. Is that expected? (This is my first time using DayOne, so I don’t know how the sharing feature behaves.)
I also found that I tend to write when I get nervous/panicking/worried. That might explain the impulse with DayOne and this blog post. I hope I can be on a level where I write because I want to write and I can finally not giving any damn about how this blog will look like for the readers. I found myself keep reminiscing, “oh, I used to blog without any care in the world! I can tell personal daily life stories!” Then do it now, damnit (intended for me personally, not for anyone in particular.)
Anyway. Good night from Kuala Lumpur. Stay safe and stay healthy, friends.
Saw this site mentioned the other day on Slack: neocities.org.
Scroll down and you will see “Featured Sites”. Never knew it brings back early 2000s, and it makes me so, so happy.
Nindya. Kapkap. she/her. Indonesian in Malaysia. Millennial. Lo-fi. Animal Crossing: New Horizons. Murder mystery genre.
Currently feeling:
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