• “Activist musician”

    Reading Ed Sheeran’s speech when he opened his Philadelphia concert gave me a bit of a pause, that immediately followed by, “huh. Anywayyyy…” This part, particularly:

    I don’t want to disappoint fans, and I’ve never wanted to be an activist musician, but this has put me in the middle of an important and passionate argument about freedom of speech and the most complex political issue on the planet.

    There has always been that voice: “But I just want to make music/play music/draw/create!” Hell yea, we just want to make music! Draw! Crochet! Why should we care about “politics” and whatever is going on at the other side of the world, whether someone gets bombed to smithereens or not?

    The “problem”, though, is the fact that even our ability and opportunity to create art is political. The reason why you could get a shiny brand-new guitar in your hands, or those nice wool yarns you can get at your nearby craft stores, those are all a result of political actions and decisions. I mean, hey, a sewing machine is one of the items that are banned in entering Palestine. But sure, go off with those “I just want to do crochet! I don’t care about politics!”

    I can understand the mental fatigue and despair in seeing today’s current news. No human being could handle this level of information and news tsunami. It feels like all of us are grasping at straws for a sliver of good news. When such dark waves are tiding in, it’s normal and expected of us to find some small joys, such as making music, strumming our guitars, painting, or knitting. That said, I don’t think we could negate that whatever we are enjoying, and not enjoying, right now is a result of some powerful people’s decisions and, well, the game of politics.

    This is why the term “activist musician” does not sit well with me. We are in the year of our Lord of 2026, and being apolitical would be… I don’t know, sad? Miserable? I’m not sure how often an Ed Sheeran opens his social media, but I honestly wonder if he ever reads something like “silence is complicity”.

    I once chatted about this with Ari. Specifically, on why some megastars prefer to stay quiet and “cari jalan aman” (I’m trying to find the English equivalent of this. Hm. “Choosing the safer route”?) despite the number of followers they have. Ari commented that, “perhaps that’s the reason why they stay quiet: They don’t want to lose their followers.” I also wondered if the reason they never share their opinions or thoughts is that they never have one in the first place. Their images have been so polished and fabricated up to a point that they forgot how to be themselves. It’s like that scene on “Sen to Chihiro” (Spirited Away) by Studio Ghibli, you know? When Chihiro got her name “taken” by Yuubaba, the evil witch and the bath-house owner, and changed into “Sen”. Haku told her to “remember your name”; because, ultimately, you should not forget who you really are. Perhaps this is what’s happened, and is happening, to the Ed Sheerans out there. They got so used to being directed, being told what to speak, see, hear, and think, so they forgot how to do it on their own in the first place. As Macklemore said, “his typical apolitical stance was being challenged.” Ed Sheeran got so used to being an Ed Sheeran, he might forgot how it is like to be Edward Christopher Sheeran.

    I’m not hating on Ed Sheeran. I don’t even feel anger. I just feel sad. Pity, even, seeing an adult man looking at what the world has gone into and deciding, “well, not my business. I just want to sing.” Well, you and your tours and concerts, all those, are thanks to political decisions.

    Fun fact, especially to those who “only want to sing”: During the administration of President Soekarno, Indonesia’s first president, the band members of Koes Bersaudara got thrown into the jail for one crime: Their music was inspired by The Beatles. Soekarno was hell-bent on eradicating any “western influences” in Indonesia, and he set his wrath on The Beatles, rock n’ roll, and western music in general, mocking it as “musik ngak-ngik-ngok”. This was Soekarno’s speech during Indonesia’s Independence Day celebration in 1959:

    “Dan engkau, hei pemuda-pemuda dan pemudi-pemudi; engkau yang tentunya anti-imperialisme ekonomi, engkau yang menentang imperialisme politik; kenapa di kalangan engkau banyak yang tidak menentang imperialisme kebudayaan? Kenapa di kalangan engkau banyak yang masih rock n roll, rock n roll-an, dansi- dansian ala cha-cha-cha, musik-musikan ala ngak-ngik-ngok, gila-gilaan, dan lain-lain sebagainya lagi? Kenapa di kalangan engkau banjak yang gemar membaca tulisan-tulisan dari luaran, yang nyata itu adalah imperialisme kebudayaan?”

    Then, on the next administration by President Soeharto, it was the ballad and melancholic genre that got the hit as it was dubbed as “pop cengeng. Betharia Sonata, one of Indonesia’s famous singers, was forced to sing “more upbeat, joyful songs” in 1988.

    Bahkan, menurutnya, lagu-lagu cengeng bisa membuat masyarakat menyerah dan melemahkan komitmen pembangunan bangsa. Ditambah lagi, lagu tersebut hanya bualan semata sebab bukan dibuat berdasarkan kenyataan di masyarakat.

    Insert that all-singing-and-all-dancing-and-all-smiles North Korea performers meme or video here.

    I’m closing this post with a quote from Terry Pratchett, taken from his book “The Wee Free Men: The Beginning”:

    “Them as can do has to do for them as can’t. And someone has to speak up for them as has no voices.”

    (I am also not denying the fact that Ed might not be apolitical, since I didn’t see it when he showed his support to Ukraine. It could be that he chooses to be political depending on skin colors or him too scared to face the “wrath” of some old white dude called themselves as “billionaires” with halitosis and hemorrhoids.)

  • Sunday trip for anime manga merch!

    Yesterday, I accompanied my cousin, Anin, around the KLCC area to look for anime manga stores per her siblings’ requests and sightseeing. While I’m one of the folks who would be considered “a homebody”, the fact that I am one is precisely why I actually enjoy accompanying my friends/family whenever they want to do sightseeing in KL. I learned a lot about new trends, places, and interesting food from them, hahah. I rarely go out, and when I do, seeing new things helps me reenergize myself. Even in places I frequently visited, I ended up noticing new things, thanks to them!

    Our first stop was Ombak KLCC mall, a brand-new mall next to Suria KLCC. The mall houses Galeri Petronas, previously located at Suria KLCC, and it has direct access from the MRT station Persiaran KLCC. We visited the Nintendo Pop-Up Store, and I got so chuffed seeing so many Animal Crossing: New Horizons merchs! They even have the The Roost-labeled coffee cup and saucer set and DAL mug!

    They also have ACNH saucepan!

    The store reminds me of Japan so much. A lot of plushies and merchandises from Nintendo’s games which gives you that huge impulse to spend money.

    We then went to Kinokuniya Suria KLCC. The bookstore is having an ongoing renovation and they are doing it per area instead of the whole store, so while we are still able to shop in the store, the space is quite tight. That said, I found The Family of Fourteen series in the Japanese section! I grew up with this series, so imagine my excitement seeing them!

    This is what I meant by discovering new things from familiar places, hahah. Had Anin not done the beeline to the store’s Japanese section, I wouldn’t have been able to find the series from my childhood!

    I also love this artist corner. It seemed like the manga-ka for the manga “Veil” visited Malaysia and had her signing session.

    Then we went to Lalaport Bukit Bintang City Centre, and I was so impressed seeing how they dedicated the second floor as Lalaport ACG (Anime Comics Game) Base with almost all stores are all about anime, comics, and games. Unfortunately, my phone’s battery dropped quite significantly halfway through our trip (6 years old iPhone with replaced battery, hahah!) so I didn’t take a lot of pics on the anime manga stores.

    Fortunately, our visit yesterday was when Lalaport ACG Base’s Creator Market opened too! I MET JOO ING FROM JOO ING ART AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

    I love her so much oh my gosh I don’t know where to start. I first found her works from Kinokuniya Suria KLCC’s local artists area, and I have been buying the stickers and card holders ever since! When I saw her kiosk at Lalaport ACG Base’s Creator Market, I had to do a double-take. It was in the afternoon, and the place was quite crowded, but the artists were still doing their best, showing their works. I don’t think I would ever forget how happy one of them was when Anin bought stickers from her, and she was all smiling and giddy. Aaaa, my heartttt.

    These are the goodies I bought from Joo Ing Art.

    We also went to MyTown mall and visited the Akihabara Station store. The store is not super huge, but they have a really nice selection of anime manga merch, even those that are quite difficult to get. My cousin hunted for “Twisted Wonderland” merch, and she told me that this series is not available in Indonesia. We did find it at “Akihabara Station”, though, and the store even has it in a dedicated space!

    I really hope the Indonesian forest fires and the haze would go away soon. I, and alongside many people out there, would like to have our outdoor walk and sightseeing activities again.

  • Ads and personal image

    It all started with seeing my kids consuming their media. Unlike their predecessors, Gen Z and Alpha are now more curated and personalized than ever. My kids’ main source of entertainment is mostly streaming services: Netflix, Disney+, Youtube, you name it. They are rarely exposed to ads, and even if they did (through Youtube), it was a simple click of a “Skip” button or an immediate switch to a different video. Gone are the days of sprinting to the toilet when the ads appeared, or when kids had the same collective memory of certain brands and ads.

    From there. I noticed several things about my kids. First, they are not super fussy about their appearance, and second, they didn’t really know how to do some self-grooming things unless I told them how to do it (okay, I know how it sounds, but bear with me; I have more to say/write about this).

    The first observation: My kids are not super fussy about their appearance. This sounds like a good thing, and it is! At the same time, it’s kiiiiinda amusing for me that these two, a teen and a preteen, are not super worried about acne. Flashback to their mom’s teenage years: One acne could mean the end of the (social) world, because why? Because those Biore and Clean & Clear ads said so. The armpit area on your shirt got wet because your body is doing what it should, a.k.a. perspiration? Gasp, not on our watch, according to Rexona ads. In some ways, ads made us super conscious of how we looked and presented ourselves in public. Also, speaking of acne, remember Biore nose strips to pull those blackheads? When the ads aired, it seemed just overnight everyone, including their cats and uncles, was sporting nose strip on their nose, and I used to live in a small town in Central Java.

    The second observation: My kids didn’t really know how to do some self-grooming routine unless I told and showed them how to do it in detail. Yes, it’s my job, responsibility, and duty to teach them how to do it. Do you know how I learned the steps to apply a face wash properly on my face? Skincare ads. Biore anti-acne face wash. I honestly thought my kids knew about it, so when I gave Wira a brand-new Biore For Men face wash, I got so surprised when he asked me: “So how should I apply this?”

    “Eh? What do you mean?”

    “This. Thanks, ibu, for the face wash. How do I apply this?”

    (Wait. Whaaat. You didn’t know? Wait. OF COURSE HE DOESN’T KNOW. He never watched ads, let alone face wash ads!) “Uh. Sure, let me show you how to apply this…”

    The experience with my kids made me realize that, at least, a (major) chunk of Millennials were raised by the mass media. We learned some of our life skills and self-grooming based on what the media dictated to us, and I’m not sure whether it’s a good thing or not. Life skills, yay. Body image issue and unhealthy obsession with “looking perfect” because the media is showing a certain “qualities” of what being beautiful is, not yay.

  • On suggesting on “how to be mindful”

    In the world of FOMO and “first” or “pertamax” (do people still do that?), I decided to… comment on things after days, or weeks, or months, of thoughts. As Terry Pratchett said: “First sight, second thought”. The reason being: I can be really explosive when voicing out my opinions, be it orally or in writing, so… yeah.

    (Still no second thoughts/“take days or weeks to think on how you say it” on genAI and Palestine, though. As someone said on Threads: “Mereka yang masih ignorant sangat perkara genAI dan Palestine ni memang patut kena kecam”)

    More than a couple of days ago, a well-known Indonesian public figure got into a public backlash over her video on “staying mindful in the middle of bad news”. Her video on opinions, thoughts, and tips on stepping away from “the bad news” a.k.a. Reality, specifically realities in Indonesia, were met with pure hot-white visceral rage from the netizens. It didn’t help that she made the video while enjoying her western-style breakfast consisted of (IINM) cottage cheese, Omega-3 eggs, and Hass avocado, with the latter’s price could mark a minimum wage of a county or a village in Indonesia.

    Of course, there were, and still are, some thoughts and discussions on empathy, whether the excessive anger was due to the fact that this public figure is a woman as it seems like women tend to be blamed twice harsher than men/witch hunt, the risk of voicing oneself as a public figure with millions of followers, and communication skills (context and the likes. IDK, I’m not a formal student of communication, and a lot of my knowledge in communications and PR were from my years as a Marketing Management student with 4 credits of Marketing Communication class and my previous job as a PR consultant.)

    For me, at this point, it’s not about gender, although I won’t deny the fact that there have been some examples on how the criticism was harsher when the object was a woman/women. I always believe that it’s always on how you say things. Of course, there are words that I would say it harshly point blank, such as anything related with genAI, but girl, you don’t say, “you can just turn off your phone and take a walk in the Nature when things feel too much!” when the said Nature is literally blazing with fires that takes months to put out. You can’t tell people to turn off their phone and choose not to see bad news on the Internet when they actively living in it, breathing the air with >300 AQI reading with their babies dying. Especially not when you are a public figure and an Oxford AND Harvard graduate.

    Do I think the public’s anger could be directed better to the men in charge with their (stupid) decisions caused this whole mess? Absolutely. Do I also think that this public figure could do better? With her education and accolades displayed on her Wikipedia page, I honestly feel that she could do better. Hey, public figures are supposed to have some kind of PR training or PR staff, right?

  • Haze situation

    I just realized I haven’t blogged for quite some time and I have been wallowing in some kind of unhealthy-type of doomscrolling (isn’t doomscrolling always been unhealthy?) and putting myself in inexplicable rage on… everything. Mostly because of the haze caused by Indonesia’s forest fires (which, I believe, is not accidental. In Indonesian, we say it “dibakar, bukan terbakar”.)

    AirVisual screenshot

    Ugh.

    Because of the haze, we have been having a really limited time to do outdoor activities. Even going outside for work, school, or simply sightseeing the city became a health hazard. The demand for mask is increasing again, and I never imagined that I would pull out my LG Puricare mask, that obnoxious electrical gadget mask with literal air purifier on your face, for Ari to use on his way to the office. Bonus, that mask makes you sound like Darth Vader.

    Also, it’s scored 168 on AQI at my place, and it’s bad already. Imagine how it feels like at places where it’s nearby, or even at, the hotspots located. Some even hits >1000 AQI points. Screw this current Indonesia administration.

    In some ways, the despair feels like the pandemic all over again. That kind of “I’m so powerless”-feeling. You see the forest fires blazing for days, even weeks, then at the next scroll, you see that disgustingly stupid “1980s trend using genAI” trash. Right now, my consolation is reading this book:

    I got this book years ago, at a BookXcess store, and I just got my hands on it recently. I’m familiar with Terry Pratchett by name and some of his quotes, but I was in a… bad time when I first learned about him, as in, he was introduced to me by someone that I would rather not remember fondly. It took years until I finally made peace with it and opened this book, which I’m so glad I did that.

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