• The dead Internet theory is a conspiracy theory that asserts that, since around 2016, the Internet has consisted primarily of bot activity and automated content manipulated by algorithmic curation. This alleged coordinated effort aims to control the population and reduce genuine human interaction. Supporters of the theory claim that social bots were deliberately created to manipulate algorithms and enhance search results to influence consumers. Some proponents also accuse government agencies of using bots to shape public perception and opinions.

    Wikipedia

    I gotta be honest, I don’t think the “supporters of the theory” is too far-fetched, because you know what? 5 seconds into the Wikipedia link, I got immediately sold. Sold. I found out about the Youtube video above from mortaki.place, and I came to mortaki.place site because I clicked someone’s pixel hit counter (88×31) and the rest is history. I’m so proud of myself for creating, and following, breadcrumbs instead of algorithms.

    I feel the video above came in such a perfect situation. Just last night, after shalat Isya (the evening prayer), I sat down and, uh, “chatted”. I can’t say it’s a prayer because I’m not sure that starting a prayer with, “OKAY, SO, YEAH, ALLAH, YOU KNOW RIGHT–” is pretty normal or acceptable. Anyway. I did my long-ass monologue on how things have been feeling so… hopeless. For me. Just recently, there was a terrible accident involving two trains and a car in Jakarta, and all of the victims were women. Four days before the accident, there were child abuse cases (PLURAL!) at a well-known daycare center in Yogyakarta. The situation has been so bad that someone commented, “This is one of the worst times as a mother,” considering the strings of cases and incidents involving children and mothers. Initial reports from the train accidents showed findings of cooler bags, which means mothers bringing back expressed breastmilk for their babies at home. One descendant was a mother on her first day on the job after 3 months of maternal leave post-partum.

    And the worst part? I couldn’t even cry.

    I sympathise, yes. I feel the sorrow, yes. But beneath all that, I feel numb. As if my body and brain have been ready for, “what’s next bad thing going to happen after this?” After that circus, farce, and awful theatrics at the White House Correspondents’ State Dinner, I thought we couldn’t go lower than that, but apparently we did. And I feel awful. I feel awful for feeling numb about lives lost. It feels like my brain is screaming at me, “what the fuck, man, how did you become this cruel?!” I hate myself for it. It feels like I’m being pulled into the vortex of hopelessness and everywhere I’m looking at, it’s always Bad News and Something Really Bad Is Going On And You Can’t Do Anything About It.

    So, yeah, call me any words you have on your mind right now, I wonder if perhaps me stumbling into that Youtube video would be Allah’s answer, “here ya go. You spent 15 minutes yapping about how you’re feeling awful in the middle of the night while you should’ve slept, considering your cortisol level.”

    Three points from the video: Existential problems/problems of the soul are solved with creativity, back yourself, and you are what you eat/consume.

    I have so many thoughts about the concept of Dead Internet Theory: “The Internet has consisted primarily of bot activity…” One of the top 10 things that can EASILY pissed me off: “I asked ChatGPT…” No. Ew.

    Unfortunately, it happened (!) I was in this meeting, right, and for, uh, reasons, I couldn’t disclose the nature of the meeting. During the meeting, I asked something to this person, and this person asked, “Do you have Gemini on your phone?”

    I immediately showed my discomfort. “No. I prefer not using genAI if possible.” Honestly? I was surprised and taken aback by that question because this person, of all professions, should not rely too much on genAI. It would be an insult to their profession and their passion (if this person has any.)

    Call me paranoid or snappy, but I felt this person was suddenly patronizing me as they called me “love” after I told them that I have no interest whatsoever in consulting genAI for every minor inconvenience in my life. “No, love, ChatGPT is actually good! Open ChatGPT, then type “ladder of inference” and read what it’s all about.”

    BOI, THE ANGER THAT I ANGERED. How lazy that could be? My goodness.

    I refused to use whatever AI spewed at me. I typed “ladder of inference” on Google, scrolled past that damned AI section, then I found “Understanding the Ladder of Inference: Navigating Cognitive Pitfalls” (USC Gould) and “Understanding How to Use the Ladder of Inference” (HBR) in just 30 seconds. WITHOUT USING SOMEONE ELSE’S DRINKING WATER.

    (I know it’s futile because someone else’s drinking water is still being used as Google is showing that yucky AI section on the top.)

    I know that this should be a no-brainer to all of us. The signs have always been there. Heck, one of my favorite movies of all time is Pixar’s “Wall.E”, and the movie even predicted it way long before shitty genAI started to take over our timelines.

    That said, a reminder is always needed and appreciated. I feel that’s why we have THAT corner of the Internet, where the early time of the Internet in the 2000s is still cherished so. I can’t wait to see them back.

    This difference in mentality is one of the best things about web revivalists to me. In general, they are kinder and friendlier people than in the wider internet (in fact, being kind is a common tenet in web revivalist manifestos!). And it’s easy to see why. It’s harder to be rude or apathetic towards someone when you know they spent hours of their time documenting their entire CD collection just to share or hand coding a Miku shrine with all her songs from the year 2014 specifically or yelling at javascript when their theme switcher stops working for the fifth time. It’s easy to relate to the people around you when you know and can see that they put just as much time and energy and personality in their site as you do.

    — Mordecai (The Mortaki Place)

    Bonus: Speaking about genAI, I have loads of opinions about genAI. I know AI has been around since the 70s, and it has been helping humanity on a scale that some industries now rely on it. That said, ethics, ethics, ethics. AI helps medical experts and doctors find patterns in cancer and its cure? Good. GenAI steals artworks and spews ugly “Ghibli-fied” “drawings” despite Hayao Miyazaki vehemently defending the beauty of humans and humanity? Barf.

  • Expenses and subscriptions

    I was blogwalking and found a post by swissmiss (Subscription Cost Visualizer) so I wanted to give it a try. While I couldn’t find subscriptions for website host and domain name renewal (Hostinger and WordPress.com) readily available, I was able to added them manually along with additional subscriptions such as Kinokuniya Bookstore membership. I also need to point out here that some subscriptions that I enjoy are taken care of by our subscription to cable TV and Ari (hahah!).

    It was pretty interesting.

    Those are the ones I could remember for now, though. Some of them are renewed on a 3-month/quarterly cycle (IQIYI) and 4-year cycle (Hostinger website hosting).

    When I was still a Happiness Engineer in WordPress.com, there was a discussion on hosting pricing. Some US-based HEs shared their confusion about why there are users who asked for a monthly subscription. Apparently, it was not super common in the US. The monthly subscription method, however, is pretty popular elsewhere, especially in South American and Asian countries. The reason being: It has less “commitment”; as in, you are not being bound to a service/company for 12 months, and you can bail out anytime without losing too much money. That said, economies of scale do exist, and yes, the yearly subscription method tends to have lower prices than the monthly one. While now WordPress.com has been offering monthly subscription for quite some time, I can vouch that the fee of yearly subscription is way cheaper in total sum.

    I chose 3-months cycle for my IQIYI subscription because I am not a big of drama viewer afterall, be it C-drama, K-drama, or any other series/drama out there. I did enjoy C-dramas, but I’m still unsure whether I can commit for yearly subscriptions or not, hahah. The difference between a quarterly subscription and a yearly subscription is RM 10, though, so I miiiight still thinking about it (also, in this economyyy??)

    In case you want to check yours, you can visit this site: Subscription Cost Visualizer.

  • Le wild multiple templates appear!

    OK, so, yesterday I revamped this blog, right. I’m not sure what happened, and it might be due to me opening several tabs of the same thing (Site Editor) at the same time and saved stuffs on some tabs without, you know, saving the others which caused cache hijinks, but I noticed weird things yesterday.

    First, this blog’s template — template Blog Home — got reset to its default mode on its own. I don’t know what happened. No recent update on WordPress, Gutenberg (last update was 4 days ago), nor the theme Twenty Twenty Four (last update was December 2025), so I chalked the issue on cache gremlins. Not only the template Blog Home, but nearly every single template was affected, too. I got so stressed out because it was almost dinner-time and I haven’t made dinner (priorities, priorities…) Luckily, things were under control as I made most of the changes on the Site Editor’s Style section, so a lot of the style setup was still intact/saved and less minuscule changes on the small things. People who said, “don’t sweat the small stuffs” clearly haven’t seen bloggers.

    Second, this still confused me a hell lot, multiple templates/copies of templates. Like, multiples, with the same name, even. Eh, hello, system not confused meh? “Which template Pages issit she wants to use? We have like 2-3 templates with the name “Pages” here!”

    And you can bet that it was not me who made it. I have enough dignity to give files proper names, okay. At least I can put additional S on my files so I can differentiate between “final_versionsss” and “final_versionssss_ver_final_for_realss”.

    I did check the issues list on Gutenberg’s GitHub in case there were any recent reports about this, but I couldn’t find any, so it might be an isolated, rare case (again, cache.)

  • Bring it back to the 2000s

    I have been busy redesigning this blog after several obsessive visits to Neocities. I thought Neocities was just another website hosting place, until I found out that it’s not just a website hosting place. It literally a place where 2000s blogs thrive. I even found most of the bloggers are using imood! (and yes, I’m so tempted to re-sign up! I did)

    I just love how unapologetic the Internet and the blogsphere were back in its heyday. True that folks with interests in blogs, anime, mangas (those three were usually intertwined), and 1st or 2nd-generation KPop stars were deemed as outliers back then, but that was when things were genuine. We read blogs of someone battling with mental health and sadness and cheered them on, we also followed someone’s classes and exams, and everything was mostly with pure intentions and friendship. Blogs were diaries and opinions, instead of “5 Ways for You to Have Summer-Ready Body!” or any SEO-related articles. Bloggers experimented a lot back then; colorful explosions of JavaScript, iframes, glitters, and <marquee> were the “it thing”. Suffice to say, I’m so so glad to see those online diaries and musings and writings are coming back. I know they never left, it’s just that… It’s beautiful to finally find them again, you know? It feels like meeting a long lost friend.

    On my blog, I added some pixels/tiny pixels as I really love them, hahah. I also used Bitmap-style font (“rainyhearts“) in some areas, and I really need to find time to make myself a clique/pixel banner! I also found out that to give the “retro” vibe on your site (that overlay diagonal transparent lines), you can use 100% CSS. I mean, the last time I worked on such thing, I had to create a transparent image on Adobe Photoshop to be set as an overlay image, hahah. How the technology has advanced! This is what I use for this blog:

    body::before {
    content: "";
    position: fixed;
    inset: 0;
    background: repeating-linear-gradient(45deg,
      rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.02),
      rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.05) 1px,
      rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.03) 3px);
    pointer-events: none;
    z-index: 1000;
    }

    I took the code from itinerae‘s website with some adjustments (and refresher) from CSS Tricks.

    I also added background image and worked on the layout. I really love itinerae’s and rem’s planet’s designs and layout! Their blogs are so pretty and I love the small details on it.

    I’m so excited to blog again, thanks to the bloggers on Neocities.

  • Red onions

    I found a couple of red onions, tucked under regular onions, sprouting in my kitchen. I did realized them have been sprouting for quite some time, but just now I found the time (and the will) to plant them, in case there will be green onions later on.

    I also took the time to tidy things up in the balcony. We are moving into a much hotter, and much much more humid, weather recently, which means some placement rotations are in due time.

  • Saw this site mentioned the other day on Slack: neocities.org.

    Scroll down and you will see “Featured Sites”. Never knew it brings back early 2000s, and it makes me so, so happy.

Nindya. Kapkap. she/her. Indonesian in Malaysia. Millennial. Lo-fi. Animal Crossing: New Horizons. Murder mystery genre.

Currently feeling:

The current mood of retnonindya at www.imood.com
  • Urban rainbow
  • Sun and trees
  • Last weekend